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Greetings

Merry Christmas to all my friends here at Vox!

I hope the real spirit of Christmas will be in our hearts...

 

holiday

 

QotD: Singing A Holiday Tune

Audio: What's your favorite carol or holiday song?

Grown-up Christmas List. =)

The Meantime Girl

For a long time, I haven't read something really touching to my heart. This one is from my friend's blog Fair. I know many can relate to this... =).

 

The Meantime Girl

She’s the one you call when you’re bored because she makes you laugh.

She’s the one you talk to when you’re feeling down because she’s willing to lend an ear and be a friend. She’s not the one you call when you need a date to your company’s Christmas party, or to go dancing with on a Saturday night.

She’s the one you spend time with between girlfriends, before you find “The One“. You know, the one who you keep around in the meantime.

She’s not one of the guys, not a tomboy, but you don’t look at her as a “real” woman, either. She’s not b!tchy enough, moody enough, or s3xy enough to be seen in that light.

She’s too laid-back, too easily amused by the same things your male buddies are amused by. She’s too understanding, too comfortable – she doesn’t make you feel nervous or excited the way a “real” woman does.

But she’s cool, and nice, and funny, and attractive enough that when you’re lonely or h0rn y and need intimate female companionship, she’ll do just fine.

You don’t have to wine and dine her because she knows the real you already, and you don’t have any facades to keep up, no pretenses to preserve. You’re not trying to get anything of substance out of her. She’s not easy, but you know that she cares about you and is attracted to you, and that she’ll give you the intimacy you need. And you know you don’t have to explain yourself or the situation, that she’ll be able to cope with the fact that this isn’t the beginning of a relationship or that there’s any possibility that you have any real romantic feelings for her.

It won’t bother her that you’ll get up in the morning, put on your pants, say goodbye, and go on a date with the woman you’ve been mooning over for weeks who finally agreed to go out with you. She’ll settle for a goodbye hug and a promise to call her and tell her how the date went. She’s just so cool . . . why can’t all women be like that?!

But deep down, if you really think about it (which you probably don’t because to you, the situation between the two of you isn’t important enough to merit any real thought), you know that it’s really not fair.

You know that although she would never say it, it hurts her to know that despite all her good points and all the fun you two have, you don’t think she’s good enough to spend any real time with. Sure, it’s mostly her fault, because she doesn’t have to give in to your needs – she could play the hard-to-get b!t ch like the rest of them do, if she really wanted to.

But you and she both know that she probably couldn’t pull it off. Maybe she’s too short, or a little overweight, or has a big birthmark on her forehead, or works at Taco Bell.

Whatever the reason, somehow life has given her a lot of really great qualities but has left out the ones that men want (or think they want) in a woman.

So she remains forever the funny friend, the steadfast companion, the secret lov3r, and you go on searching for your goddess who will somehow be everything you ever wanted in a woman.

She doesn’t captivate you with her beauty, or open doors with her smile. Mainly she blends in with the crowd. She’s safe. She doesn’t want to be the center of attention and turn the heads of everyone in the room. But she wants to turn someone’s head. She wants to be special to someone, too. We all do.

She has feelings. She has a heart. In fact, she probably has a bigger and better heart than any woman you’ve ever known because she’s had a front-row seat to The Mess That Is Your Life, and she likes you anyway. She obviously sees something worthwhile and redeeming in you because although you’ve given her nothing, absolutely no reason to still be around, she is.

Anyway, yeah. I’m a Meantime Girl. Been one more times than I care to admit. I don’t know the reason, really, and at this point I don’t even care. I just want to let every guy know who’s ever had the good fortune to have a Meantime Girl that we may be a lot of fun, but we cry, too. A lot.

And someday we won’t be around.

 

leaving soon?!

I'm so happy today because I already got the result of my EPEC for Singapore, and I passed! My bestfriend Wella is also excited because we'll meet there soon! =) The EPEC would give me the chance to work in Singapore and look for a work there for a year. The next step is to make my portfolio, and then apply online. Maybe I'd be lucky not to use my EPEC anymore and find a company who'll apply for my working permit.  =) But still, I'm excited to leave and at the same time I'm having my time here cause when I already have a job, I will  be really busy. By the way, my best time to go there is on the first week of february before Chinese New Year!

Wish me luck! =)

enjoying the title "freelancer"

I saw this article last night "101 Reasons why Freelancer Do it Better". And it makes me think twice of applying for a corporate job again. I like this one... in control of my own battle field. Clients appreciate my works, and Time is on my side. I love going to Manila and still I can do my work - everywhere. I can do my work in my pajamas... and the price is really really great. I haven't saved as much as right now compared when I was working in a company in Manila. But still... I will find a corporate job and apply pretty soon. The best part is, I can always do my freelance work anytime. If there's an instance that I would leave it for I while - I can always come back!

For the past weeks I've been doing some projects. My bestfriend from Singapore recommended me to do their website. I'm lucky, I just sent my portfolio and a template, and it's already done. I am close to finishing it today... but unfortunately I think the Angel of Death came here awhile back. A problem just came when it's almost finished. I remember during our thesis when they said the angel of death would really visit when everyone's rushing for a project - and would crash the project... or the computer perhaps! Well, what I have is really not that bad. I'm hoping I can fix the problem tomorrow and eventually finish the project - everything before the week ends. Hayy...

I'll be getting my renewed passport tomorrow and hopefully I can already apply for EPEC for Singapore. I am planning to go there - hopefully January next year. I hope I can get a good job there... and still pursue my freelance job. i've been planning for so long to work abroad and I really hope next year, I'll be ready!

Ok...back to work.

sad event

Last Friday, a shocking bad thing happened to Glorietta Mall in Makati, Manila. There was a big explosion who took several lives and so many injuries, and destroyed some part of the mall. Here's one of the news article.

Glorietta Mall is one of my favorite malls. I always go there whenever I'm in Manila. It's where me and my friends usually meet and eat out. It's where I do most of my shopping, and it's where I always go to watch movies. There were several times I watched movies there alone. I was so lucky that time that we postponed our Manila trip last week, and go there on the 28th of October instead. Because there is a big probability that me and my sister would go there that Friday to watch a movie. I was also planning to go there to visit our salon where we just had our last hair cut. This is the most disturbing part... Our salon is located near where the explosion took place - actually infront of where the ceilings and concrete walls collapsed. I saw the salon on tv, and fortunately there were only broken glasses. I was also worried because most of my friends who usually eat there for lunch. Also, one of my friend who is very special to me is working there. I thank God, he's alright.

For now... the reason behind this explosion is still vague. Some say it's a terrorist act, others say its because of a leaking LPG tank. It's really scary. What more to those who were there?

the stars on the soup

I've been busy doing Soupstar website and so far, there are lots of improvements. I got trouble with templates, CSS, and flash. But I loved what I did. I think they will like it! I hope to finish 90 percent by the end of September. My brain's really all tangled up! But there's more... another website coming up, and this one should be finished in two weeks! Oh my!

It's already 5:00 am, Philippine time... my back's aching, I'm hungry, and I need to sleep.

Lisa Loeb's "Morning Song" is played on my player. Good Morning!

when all the stars are falling...

Do you experience weird events like suddenly thinking of someone, like an old friend you don't see anymore, then suddenly after a day or two, you will surprisingly get a message from that person? Sometimes, you would even bump into him. Weird and funny sometimes, life's unpredictable ways makes me wonder and feel good sometimes.

I saw the news about the Bar exams that just finished two days ago and thought of my long lost friend who took up law. He's not really aware that I'm always wishing him to do great in his bar exam ...and for some "reason", I believe if he'll pass this exam I will really feel happy for him. There are lot of friends I miss and he is one of them, and that too, he doesn't know. By the way, after seeing the news, the next day, I saw his friendster account's been updated. That's the closest to weird event for now. :-(

I guess my social life's super boring right now, if cyber friends are not included! hehe Anyways, I'm really busy with my latest web project. Wish me luck!

Coolness

Almost Famous

I just watched the movie ALMOST FAMOUS. It wasn't that "exciting", but it really made me laugh and I liked it a lot since my life today is somewhat relates to it. Not that I'm becoming a part of a groupie (who follows and sleeps with rockstars based on the movie), but I actually can relate with the boy who had a chance to be with the band since rolling stone asked him to write an article about them. Since I am not a writer, my "tool" to know people is my skills in graphics and web designing. When I was starting in design, I offered a free website to a band I really admire back in Baguio. Since then, I became friends with them. I am not really the "wild" type of fan. I prefer being the "band-aid" as the movie explains as the one who loves the music. I love supporting the group I like, and thanks to the internet, it became an instrument to know more people, especially in this case, in the music scene. But there's this one actor when I was in old work (which is in a movie company) who I'd really wanted to make a site because I really have a huge crush on him. It didn't pushed through, but I still had the chance to meet him and all. =) Then right now, I am doing the website of a music management with artists that are bands. Local bands are popular here, and it seems overwhelming to know and be known by people who are admired by many people. Screaming, cherishing signatures, taking pictures, singing their songs, buying their albums... these fans does these things for the band. And I feel so lucky to know them by just doing my way, just like in the movie. It's not only because they are famous, but I admire and feel lucky to know music geniuses like them, who actually are institutions when it comes to the original Pinoy Music.

Before the band performed last night, me and my sister were having our dinner at the other side of the venue when the rockstar went near to us and smiled at us. He stayed there for some time while my sister was secretly kicking my feet! hehe! Then, another rockstar from the same band saw us too and talked to us! Then after a while, they went down the stage and performed. Fans were screaming! They were singing their songs which lyrics I don't even memorize. Wild. If a fan could exchange places with us, I will be worried - for the band and for the person because she/he might not take it! hehe. Groupies would really love to be on our place. Cool huh? (i just imagine how cooler it would be to be in the place of the people behind my greatest bands of all time, e.g. DMB, Smashing Pumpkins etc.) ---that would really be great! 

At the end of the day... it will just be the music and the connection it created. =) 

'x' number of days before X-mas

Holly

Our country is said to have the longest Christmas season. It starts on the first day of the "-BER" month which is September 1, and ends on the second week of January. It's not surprising to hear Christmas songs on the radio. I was watching the news and after, they announced the number of days before Christmas! I was really freaked out! I love Christmas, but it just means time's moving really fast. Another Christmas is approaching.  There's something about it that gives me butterflies in my stomach. Maybe because it's vacation plus reunions. And not only will I see my old friends but also those I would "love" and "hate" to see. I've been a cynical person especially to my highschool days. I don't deny that college for me was the "highschool" experience. I love my college years more. Though most of my friends right now surprisingly are the boys from highschool, I still feel cynical, especially with my Cinderella type of story. But ofcourse there are my real trusted friends I will see. That would be the real fun part. And not to mention seeing old crushes, and some flirting on the side. haha!

Is it ok if I already wish everyone a Merry Christmas!? =)